DIPONEGORO
by Charil Anwar
Di masa pembangunan ini
tuan hidup kembali
Dan bara kagum menjadi api
Di depan sekali tuan menanti
Tak gentar. Lawan banyaknya seratus kali.
Pedang di kanan, keris di kiri
Berselempang semangat yang tak bisa mati.
MAJU
Ini barisan tak bergenderang-berpalu
Kepercayaan tanda menyerbu.
Sekali berarti
Sudah itu mati.
MAJU
Bagimu Negeri
Menyediakan api.
Punah di atas menghamba
Binasa di atas ditindas
Sesungguhnya jalan ajal baru tercapai
Jika hidup harus merasai
Maju
Serbu
Serang
Terjang
Monday, March 30, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
Between me and the bosses
Office politicking is sometimes unavoidable. It's just like quick sand : the more you resist, the more you would be sucked down. Even if you try to come out clean, you would end up as dirty as them.
In my present situation, work has been full of intrigues. I have been wronged, misjudged, underestimated. On the contrary, I kept being assigned for things they say they would never find anyone to do-- not because they confide in me, but because I have been so well notorious for next-to-impossible tasks for one single stupid reason : I love challenge.
I plead guilty for expecting too much for the company I work in. The worst decision I made is : I stayed, hoping that someday things would turn out to be better. I used to tell a friend that if I were in the system, somehow I would either toxic or contribute to the whole process. Even if they say to me many times to cool myself down (seems that my energy has freaked them out) and just focus on my personal business : my family --which I find irrelevant to my professional situations, I chose to fight. I was born to be a fighter.
And to make my life complete , my direct megalomaniac superior labeled me " trouble maker" . Why? It's simply because this person has been trying to limit my access to information, but I eventually found myself to escape and strike back. Words do not scare me. I ve done my homework on how to find the right people for the right information.
Am I bothered by the public opinion my direct superior tried to shaped? Ha-ha. The thing is I am an old player. Though some people hated me so much for what I do : cutting of the crap red tapes, they had to admit I made their lives easier by doing so.
And what kind of employee would you become when you had to fight against your direct boss, but the top policy makers had strong faith in you? It's humane that my boss will be constantly jealous and isnt it humane too for me to enjoy the sensation of being envied? Ha-ha. I just can not wait for Monday. Really.
In my present situation, work has been full of intrigues. I have been wronged, misjudged, underestimated. On the contrary, I kept being assigned for things they say they would never find anyone to do-- not because they confide in me, but because I have been so well notorious for next-to-impossible tasks for one single stupid reason : I love challenge.
I plead guilty for expecting too much for the company I work in. The worst decision I made is : I stayed, hoping that someday things would turn out to be better. I used to tell a friend that if I were in the system, somehow I would either toxic or contribute to the whole process. Even if they say to me many times to cool myself down (seems that my energy has freaked them out) and just focus on my personal business : my family --which I find irrelevant to my professional situations, I chose to fight. I was born to be a fighter.
And to make my life complete , my direct megalomaniac superior labeled me " trouble maker" . Why? It's simply because this person has been trying to limit my access to information, but I eventually found myself to escape and strike back. Words do not scare me. I ve done my homework on how to find the right people for the right information.
Am I bothered by the public opinion my direct superior tried to shaped? Ha-ha. The thing is I am an old player. Though some people hated me so much for what I do : cutting of the crap red tapes, they had to admit I made their lives easier by doing so.
And what kind of employee would you become when you had to fight against your direct boss, but the top policy makers had strong faith in you? It's humane that my boss will be constantly jealous and isnt it humane too for me to enjoy the sensation of being envied? Ha-ha. I just can not wait for Monday. Really.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
In your eyes
In your eyes
And I think I finally know you
I can see beyond your smile
I think that I can show you
That what we have is still worthwile
Don’t you know that love is like a thread
That keeps unraveling in bedIt ties us back together in the end
In your eyesI can see my dreams reflections
In your eyesI found the answers to my questions
In your eyesI can see the reason why our love’s alive
In your eyesWe’re drifting safely back to shore
And I think I’ve finally learned to love you more
And you warned me that life changes
And that know one really knows
Whether time will make us strangers
Or whether time will make us grow
Ohh, even though the winds of time will change
In a world where nothing stays the same
Through it all, our love will still remain
Feels like singing it? Click here
And I think I finally know you
I can see beyond your smile
I think that I can show you
That what we have is still worthwile
Don’t you know that love is like a thread
That keeps unraveling in bedIt ties us back together in the end
In your eyesI can see my dreams reflections
In your eyesI found the answers to my questions
In your eyesI can see the reason why our love’s alive
In your eyesWe’re drifting safely back to shore
And I think I’ve finally learned to love you more
And you warned me that life changes
And that know one really knows
Whether time will make us strangers
Or whether time will make us grow
Ohh, even though the winds of time will change
In a world where nothing stays the same
Through it all, our love will still remain
Feels like singing it? Click here
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Ternyata....
Tuhan menempeleng saya dengan keras beberapa kali sudah di awal tahun ini. Mungkin jidat saya sudah terlanjur bebal dengan kemplangan ringan . He he.
Kemplangan pertama, mengenai pekerjaan.
Saya bukan nabi, juga tidak membawa amanat apa-apa dari Tuhan. Punya misi juga tidak. Tapi jika dua bulan pertama di 2009 ini ada beberapa orang yang menunjuk saya sebagai biang keladi suatu kegagalan proyek, atau tidak terselesaikannya pekerjaan yang menjadi tanggung jawabnya (catatan : Bukan tanggung jawab saya), itu bukan anugrah. Saya juga tak sudi berkampanye untuk membersihkan nama baik saya (wong saya sendiri ndak jelas, apakah nama saya baik atau buruk, atau bahkan saya punya nama atau ternama).Punya partai juga tidak. Terimakasih saja, Tuhan, saya numpang ngetop sesaat karena caci maki.
Kemplangan kedua, mengenai hubungan. Hubungan bilateral adanya: ibu-anak, anak-ibu, mertua-menantu, kakak-adik. Saya memang penakut. Takut kecewa jika harus mengharapkan. Takut sendiri kalau mau mendekatkan diri. Berusaha keras untuk tidak minta pertolongan apalagi menggantungkan diri. Ternyata, saya harus kejungkir dan terbalik. Gengsi harus saya kantongi. Mau apa,kemudian? ya....terimakasih saja Tuhan, saya masih KAU tempeleng.
Kemplangan ketiga, saya merasa hidup sudah terlalu enak. Punya segalanya sih tidak,tapi paling tidak bisa sedikit bernafas lega dan cengengesan lebih sering. Suami, ada. Dicintai, iya (walau gak dimuluk-muluki). Teman, hebat-hebat, tinggal sms-tinggal telpon-tinggal bilang-tinggal pesan. Kesehatan, tidak ada keluhan. Terus......tiba-tiba , JUEDER!!!! Saya terjerembab, nyusruk ke dalam ketidakpastian tentang keajegan ini. Wow, Tuhan memang punya skenario jitu untuk memutar isi kepala saya yang (mungkin) hampir congkak.
Ternyata, saya ini bukan siapa-siapa, tidak berkuasa apa-apa. Saya bisa saja kehilangan segalanya dalam hitungan detik. Dan, pada saat ini, dalam hitungan detik saya cuma bisa merasakan sensasi bahwa saya pernah diberi kesempatan untuk hidup. Lalu saya akan hilang, tak berarti apa-apa. Itu saja.
Kemplangan pertama, mengenai pekerjaan.
Saya bukan nabi, juga tidak membawa amanat apa-apa dari Tuhan. Punya misi juga tidak. Tapi jika dua bulan pertama di 2009 ini ada beberapa orang yang menunjuk saya sebagai biang keladi suatu kegagalan proyek, atau tidak terselesaikannya pekerjaan yang menjadi tanggung jawabnya (catatan : Bukan tanggung jawab saya), itu bukan anugrah. Saya juga tak sudi berkampanye untuk membersihkan nama baik saya (wong saya sendiri ndak jelas, apakah nama saya baik atau buruk, atau bahkan saya punya nama atau ternama).Punya partai juga tidak. Terimakasih saja, Tuhan, saya numpang ngetop sesaat karena caci maki.
Kemplangan kedua, mengenai hubungan. Hubungan bilateral adanya: ibu-anak, anak-ibu, mertua-menantu, kakak-adik. Saya memang penakut. Takut kecewa jika harus mengharapkan. Takut sendiri kalau mau mendekatkan diri. Berusaha keras untuk tidak minta pertolongan apalagi menggantungkan diri. Ternyata, saya harus kejungkir dan terbalik. Gengsi harus saya kantongi. Mau apa,kemudian? ya....terimakasih saja Tuhan, saya masih KAU tempeleng.
Kemplangan ketiga, saya merasa hidup sudah terlalu enak. Punya segalanya sih tidak,tapi paling tidak bisa sedikit bernafas lega dan cengengesan lebih sering. Suami, ada. Dicintai, iya (walau gak dimuluk-muluki). Teman, hebat-hebat, tinggal sms-tinggal telpon-tinggal bilang-tinggal pesan. Kesehatan, tidak ada keluhan. Terus......tiba-tiba , JUEDER!!!! Saya terjerembab, nyusruk ke dalam ketidakpastian tentang keajegan ini. Wow, Tuhan memang punya skenario jitu untuk memutar isi kepala saya yang (mungkin) hampir congkak.
Ternyata, saya ini bukan siapa-siapa, tidak berkuasa apa-apa. Saya bisa saja kehilangan segalanya dalam hitungan detik. Dan, pada saat ini, dalam hitungan detik saya cuma bisa merasakan sensasi bahwa saya pernah diberi kesempatan untuk hidup. Lalu saya akan hilang, tak berarti apa-apa. Itu saja.
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